i just dont understand

Sometimes I just dont understand girls...maybe, just maybe its not me. and by that i mean maybe its not me thats the problem, not that there was a problem. and i would also like to add that maybe its not just me who does not understand girls. im not trying to be mean and i hope that it didn't come across that way. i thought i found a good girl, well, i did find a good girl i should say, but i guess sometimes others have different plans and dont think like i do, i guess. but for the record, i must add that it was really nothing, nothing but some fun times and hope in what might/could happen, but i guess that we can always dream big, and deal with the truth, accepting the here and now. ill keep living my life, praying to God everyday, asking for one more favor. I'm so blessed though, can't complain one bit. i dont really know what to say cause im kinda confused, im just rambling on. Maybe, someday...

anyways, remicade today, yes!! ive been feeling like crap lately, but i think the remicade has been working its magic and been preventing me from totally going under















Had a bad day, don't talk to me
gonna ride this out,
my little black heart, breaks apart,
with your big mouth.
and i'm sick of my sickness
don't touch me, you'll get this
i'm useless, lazy, perverted
and you hate me
you can't save me
you can't change me
well i'm waiting for my wake up call
and everything, everything's my fault
went to the doctor, and i asked her to make this stop
got medication- a new addiction
fuckin thanks a lot.